I want God, not my idea of God.
Truth. Before my actual experience with God, I already thought I had a connection to god. It was impersonal, far away, distant, abstract, unfathomable… I would say god is pleasure, emotions, wind, trees, eyes, flowers, my own self and whatever self expression I felt like that day. It was a constantly changing and elusive idea of god. “A truth” that changes according to my needs. It was a god that accepted my lifestyle of sin and made me feel good to believe in. I used the wo