I cannot believe I am now calling myself a Christian... but it is what I am.
I feel and acknowledge Jesus Christ is my Lord and Saviour and what he did at the cross has redeemed my soul.
I feel the Holy Spirit as my guide and keeps me on mission and aligned. With this Spirit of Truth, I can discern what is not spirutually true and if it is leading me away from God.
I am the beloved daughter of God. His presence envelops me and I am lit up by His love. His love is unconditional and I am sooo loved by Him.
I stand by proudly and firmly declaring that I am a Christian.
I truly did not see this coming. I was told in a dream a month ago that I am to declare that I am a “born again Christian”... I didn’t know what it really meant until the journey continued to unfold. In fact, I was terrified of the changes and the rejection from friends. I don’t care, it is the most wonderful thing.
I don’t even see this as a religion. I see it as a transformative process I have gone through. It is not the path of ‘enlightenment’ but instead I have been gifted salvation. I didn’t know what it was until it happened. It is more true than everything I have ever felt before. From this moment on, I am forever transformed. I vow to never be apart from God. He is my everything .
I also had to look up the definition of salvation on Wikipedia and it explained the process and helped me to understand what I went through. It is “the deliverance of the soul from sin and its consequences” . I get what “Salvation Army” is all about now .
I am born again. It is “a spiritual rebirth and a regeneration of the human spirit from the Holy Spirit.” It is a thing and it is a very real process. It is accessible to anyone who believes in Him. I praise His Holy Grace and wish everyone to come Home and feel this for themselves. I have an evangelist soul .
I didn’t have to work on my chakras, do more rituals, and increase my ‘self-love’ exercises. In fact, I see now how self-idolising it all was. I can affirm all you need is sweet faith, surrender and prayer. I now worship Him everyday and count His blessings everywhere I go. I am a liberated woman of God by His Grace.
We all need to be saved. That is the truth and it’s humbling to admit. We don’t in fact know it all and we have gone against God. We have selfish desires, greed, envy, deep pain, we seek for our own self pleasure, misuse our anger and we cover our sadness and emptiness with more healing and forged optimism. I realised the painful longing and loneliness I have felt, was really the longing to be Home with Him.
I didn’t know God was a Father and that was a pleasant surprise. I felt deeply deceived by the new age beliefs upon this realisation. Also love and forgive our fathers, no matter how shitty they were. There are a lot of broken souls out there.
I didn’t know I would have a ‘new’ heart. Like literally... I can’t scientifically prove this of course but it feels brand new! What a blessing to feel joy and peace
I didn’t know I was actually Holy. This is so precious and I have reclaimed my purity. I will not let any man touch me that is not coming from his heart and not of God, as I am His temple.
I wasn’t deserving to be saved, I have sinnned so much. We all have but I was redeemed and renewed. To confess, I hung out in a Shibari den the night before I found Him. We all have our pasts.
There are so many things I can say about this new chapter. All I know is that it is the most important and deepest relationship I have been on. I was born to love God. I sincerely hope we are all open and humble enough to let God love us too.
“If my people, which are called by my name, shall humble themselves, and pray, and seek my face, and turn from their wicked ways; then will I hear from heaven, and will forgive their sin, and will heal their land.” 2 Chronicles 7:14
Amen
11/04/21
